It's a wrap

I'm offically closing down my blog.

I forsee not being able to blog as much any more so I won't bother. I will have another blog tho but I rather keep it a personal thing.

Thanks for surfing thru my blog and giving your views, comments, sympathies, advices and all that.

*BIG muahhhhhhhs*

LadyGem

No tears

My 2nd last uncle (mum's side), passed away on the 11th of January 2006 @ 7.15pm. Mum sent me an sms to inform me. Scott got it too and we were both shocked. Even dad was shocked cos he was thinking that uncle was altually looking better and seems to be healing. Well, life knicks you in the ass when you're not looking, I guess.

Just came back from the funeral. It was simple. The body was put in church for 2 nights for wakes and today, it was brought for cremation in Cheras. Mass was at 11am and then jammed all the way to Cheras. What mad eit worse was that some got lost on the way there and we had to wait. After some more prayers, the coffin was lower for burning but the burner was not ready. More waiting for another 20mins. After all's done, headed for lunch and had a really HUGE lunch as many didn't turn up. There were like 6-7 people on a table and the food portion was actually for 10 people.

Anyway, my youngest uncle was telling me that we prolly should prepaid the caretaker as there will be more funerals to come. I have to agree. Not to be mean, but everyone's getting older and more people are getting diesease now a days. Life has to end some day. As funeral expenses would increase in the near future, we might as well pay up now and not worry about when we die.

I didn't even shed a tear today nor the other 2 days. I am close to my uncle and aunties and even the in-laws but as for this particular uncle and his family, I didn't really wanna get to know them too much. They just had such a complicating life and I didn't wanna get involved. Because of this, I didn't feel much of a loss. And thinking on the positive side, he was suffering these years, it is a good thing that he leaves his bodily pain. But I do feel sad for everyone who dies a physical death cos I put myself in the family's shoes. It would be torture. I hope I won't have to go through this pain any time soon.

My New Beau

Katherine Moennig.. Some might know her from a hit-series, The "L" Word where she plays Shane, a really hot lesbian who will leave at least 1 girl crying whenever she walks into a room. And man, she can make me cry any time. Hahaha.. G wants a piece of her as well and claims Katherine already even though Katherine doesn't even know we both exist. Man, it has come to this, 2 girls fighting over a GIRL! Hahaha...

I Hate Christmas

It's the time of cheer and happines, so why do I not feel so jolly? In true fact, the feeling of christmas has left me the year my parents got seperated.

Now, I feel for christmas is stress. The stress of worrying what to buy for everyone and whether I have the budget for it. The stress of cleaning the house for a party of some sort. The stress of wrapping presents. The stress of wondering of either parent would mind if I spent it with the other...

Christmas is indeed a very sad time of the year for me. A true meaning of christmas is where it should be spent with your family, eating and drinking and opening presents together. Now, the meaning has somewhat changed to spending it with friends, smoking and drinking and doing crazy things. I know I'm being all sentimental here, but it's the truth. I used to look forward to christmas when I was younger. Even getting ready for christmas was so much fun. My whole family would be cleaning the house, putting up christmas decorations and the tree, buying gifts, wrpping them... all these were done 2 weeks before christmas and from that time till christmas, there was always so much joy and happiness.

My friends asked me out for some get-together later. I'm thinking of declining them. I just don't have the mood for partying. Christmas is just so dreadful to me. I think I should stay home and accompany my dad. Already I feel bad for not being with mum. I called her ealier to ask if she was home, for me to drop off the presents, she sounded unhappy, I don't blame her, with all her kids not around her during christmas, even I would be unhappy. But if I were with her, then what about dad? He'll be alone as well. I don't like having to choose and seperate cos it only makes me feel horrible and I know there's no way of changing things. I thought I would have gotten used to this lifestyle by now, but even after about 10 years living like this, I still haven't gotten used to the whole I-feel-bad-for-not-being-with-the-other-parent-during-christmas.

Christmas sucks!

Finally... Interviews!!!

Yesterday and today, I have been getting some calls for interview. I am suppose to go for an interview in Section 19 (Wisma Acedemy) for the position of Marketing Executive for this company call Advantech but seeing as I didn't get a return call on the confirmation of today's interview, I might not go. But then again, I think I might give them a call, just to be sure.

Earlier, I got a call from Waves PR for a position as Writer. Suppose to go for interview on Friday noon. The place is in Phileo 1 and I'm looking forward to that as I really want to be a writer more than anything else.

Day before yesterday, I got a call around 6.30pm to ask me to go for an interview in Sec 17 in this company call HK Comp as an Indoor Business Development Executive. This interview will be on Friday morning. Even though I have a sinking suspicion that it will be mostly telemarketing, I will just go and see what happens.

I'm so overjoyed these 2 days from getting interview calls. Even though I am still not so desperate to quit my current job (as it seems to be quite stable at the moment, minus the money part), I will open myself to oppurtunities. I mean, if other companies can offer me more, why not?

Christmas Time!!!

It's almost Christmas time. This means cheers, parties, pressies, happiness and get-togethers. But for me, this is a time of torture. With all the gift buying and hunting, I rather not celebrate Christmas.

Was in KL the whole of Sunday with Kie. Walked from Sungai Wang, to Low Yat to Times Square and even to Central Market. Kie was complaining and even I was too (considering I don't complain much when it comes to shopping). My legs needed a much deserved rest when I got home.

I think I pretty much covered everyone's pressies, except for dad (don't know what to get him) and my friends (which I plan to buy in Jan - lack of $$$ and party's in Jan anyway). Unfortunately, I have to be the one buying all the pressies and write BOTH my brother's name on it even though the $$$ comes from me. *sigh* The resposibilities of being the eldest!

Spent the whole of Saturday at my cousin's wedding. So glad he finally settled down. Actually, we all predicted he'll be the 1st of the 3 siblings to settle down as GT doesn't seem to wanna have a family and MT is still young (even tho she has a steady already). So, congrats LT and Jo. After the wedding, there was luncheon. All in all, everything took a wraps at 4pm.

Went out for dinner with the rest of the family at The Curve. Elder generation was complaing about female side of the family, saying they are taking all the money from the wedding and blahblahblah... As usual, money's the source of all evil. Got a good sounding from elders to remind us, the younger generation not to be so silly and easily be taken advantage of when it's our turn to get married.

Besides that, The Curve was really pretty with all Christmas decors and Christmas songs playing in the background. Wanted to take piccies with my camera phone but decided was too lazy to. Maybe next time. For more Christmassy piccies, please go to Pinky's blog.

12 December Shopping

Was a bit pissed that even though it was a Selangor public holiday, I still had to go back to office. All because of Stupid Daren's work. He never gives me peace. He's always passing me last minute work and I have to bust my ass for him. I know he's a Director and all but cmon, I'm human too... You can't gimme last minute work and expect it to be done there and then and perfect. Trust me, I ain't the only one complaining about him. He is so well-known for passing his shit around that a lot of people don't like him.

Anyways, MFish decided to let us off at 5.30pm. Which was good as Kev drove and he sent Kie and me to my house. It was raining so I got dad to send me to 1U. was shoping till I dropped and Kie literally dropped. She kept cursing me for getting her to walk so much. I bought close to RM300 that day but I was satisfied. I managed to get a dress for CF's wedding and some accessories to go with it. Unfortunately, I was so hooked on getting my stuffs that I didn't even get any Xmas pressies.


I liked this top so much because it's transparent and can be casually thrown over a tube or spaghetti strap.
Top from WH @ RM 71


Now, this is the dress that I'm gonna wear to CF's wedding. Hopefully CF doesn't sees this blog cos she's supposed to be suprised.
Dress from Blook @ RM 80


Accessories to match my dress. A necklace and a butterfly ring. Now, if only I can find earrings to match too.
Necklace @ RM 35, Ring @ RM 26 from Vault


These were SO cute, I HAD to buy it. I especially liked the lil fwavers on it. Wanted to buy another similar with orange flowers but was thinking about the $$$ part.
Boxer from WH @ RM 26


Matty's birthday is on 27 Dec, had to get him a card cos I can't seem to afford anything else. Would love to get an airplane ticket to Sydney to suprise him but that would be a bomb for me. *sigh*

Xmas card for Matty. Again, would prefer to fly there and present myself as his pressie (hey... no kinky thought, k?) but no $$$
Cards from Memory Lane @ RM 40

Well, that's all for now. Back to work. Will be going to town this Sunday. Cousin's wedding on Saturday. So many things happening this December.

This Is The Truth Of Life

Taken from http://vivianeng.blogspot.com/

Car Wash

Ever been to a carwash? Normally, my friends would either wash their car, themselves or send it to the automatic carwash thingys. These thingys are like a tunnel and your car gets moved from one end to the other while being "showered", soaped, scrubbed, "showered" again and "blow dried". Of course there is the occasionally, polishing at a certain rate.

About a week ago, I was given the chance to attend a "carwash ceremony" with my mum. After a whole morning of shopping, she decided that her car needed a good cleaning. I, on the other hand, thought that she was gonna park her car at the carwash thingy machines but NO... she decided to drive to Seapark and turn into this parking lot. There, stood 4 Indian boys, barely the age of 20, washing cars. 2 boys were in charge of washing the car and the other 2 were to vaccum and polish. An average price for a car would be around RM8 (minus polishing).

What shocked me the most was that they have arranged soda and chairs for car owners to sit, while waiting for their car to be done.While I was there, there were 2 other men waiting. 1 was playing with his PDA and the other was reading a newspaper. It was actually quite comfortable. Another shocker came was when I realised that some of the car owners actually leaves their car keys to the boys as they don't want to wait and go have their snack or something. The best part came when one has to drive from washing area to polishing area. As I said, these boys were barely even 20 years old (maybe even younger, I'm speculating here) and I bet that they have no driver's license. Yet, they drove those cars (whose owners gavwere not around), whether the car was big or small, automatic or manual, they still managed to drive it.


Car being scrubbed down, while I was sitting at the sofa, snapping piccies


After being scrubbed, a good shower from one of those high-powered sprays


Car had to be driven to another spot to be vaccumed and polished

The whole process took approximately 10mins a car.

New Forms of Transportation...?

This will never be accept in Malaysia... Imagine all over the roads, there's hogs... We'll need loads of mud, instead of highways and an awfully long time to get from one place to another.


More piggy cars...? (Pink, you might like this cos it's pink.)


A slow car? I hope it moves faster than it's original source, or else, you'll have people honking and swearing you off the streets.

FOR THE MEN... These would be more your liking...




I assume these kinda cars will make the men think of speed and turbo and being a superhero...


As for this one, the men would prolly love to run their hands round the sleek shape and hardness of the.....
Bonnet.... (What were you thinking...?)

FOR THE LADIES... This might be more suited for you.

I'll prolly have mine a bit more lacy and strappy *winks*

This next one really tickles me. Imagine driving round in this....

Hahahaha...

All pictures were taken from http://vivianeng.blogspot.com/

How Old Are You Now...?

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SWEET TEEN!!! Yes you are a teenager mmmm from 13 - 19
quite a little rebel haha just kidding...
You think as a teenager, you see everything quite simple, soon
you will realize it is not that simple. In my opinion you look at
things in a very beautiful way. =)

Yeay... Yeay... I'm still a teenager (I wish) *rolls eyes* If only I could turn back time. Being a teenager was my greatest time. When raging hormones kicked in, flirting was common, dating "bad boys" was the norm, moving in and out or relationships were nothing unusual, skipping class and smoking behind anywhere we could find was a thrill and just being plain ruthless, thinking the world is our oyster. Ahhh... Yes, it was great fun being a teenager.

Can't Help Myself

I found this while surfing around. Afterall, being the office with nothing to do and loads of internet access, what more can I do?

When I can across this, I couldn't help it but to use it in this blog. All I thought about was Pink, cos she HEARTS Orly Bloom.


taken from http://www.kennysia.com/archives/2005/11/zhng_my_face.php

I Will Miss...

He's gone now.

He left without a trace. No hugs, no goodbye kisses. Ffish didn't even realised it was his last day.

Went for dinner with him and Other. Nothing fancy, just a simple dinner at TL. A simple meal that cost RM3.40. We joked, we laughed, we gossiped. All the while I was wishing things didn't have to end. Everything else seemed normal. It didn't feel like it was his last day. Right up till the time he dropped me home.

That's when the feelings of emptiness sinked in.

His parting words, "Goodbye, Garfield." And mine? "Fuck you la!" *laughs*

Thinking back, I still smile. He always had a 1st impression of me as garfield and it never did leave him. I hated it cos I hate CATS! But now, I'd give anything to have him say that to me.

I'll miss his funny remarks.
I'll miss his comforting words.
I'll miss his stories about his experiences.
I'll miss his boyish smile.
I'll miss hanging with him at Jln Alor.
I'll miss him as my release-stress bag.
I'll miss abusing him when he pisses me off.
I'll miss his fwaffy hair.

*sniffs*
I'LL MISS EVERYTHING ABOUT HIM!!!
*cries*

With that, it closes this chapter of my life.

-end-

Bye-Bye, Happiness

I never felt like this, even though I knew he was leaving more than a week ago. I was sad but it never did hurt.

I got back from dinner today, lay on my bed and thought, "Tomorrow's his last day. How are we gonna celebrate it? What should I wear?" and then it suddenly hit me, "Who am I gonna go smoke with? Who's gonna be my punching bag? There will be no more reasons for me to walk over to that department. I will not be able to turn back and look at him or disturb him. I cannot stand at Jln Alor, just stoning with him." I felt the sadness overwhelm me, just like it is now as I'm typing this.

Good God, I will miss him so much. I have been reminiscing back on the first time I saw him. How I knew (even then) that I would like to know him. And we did. It took some work from my part but look at us now, we're great pals.

I can't bare going through tomorrow. To spend one last time in his company... I know I sound lame and all but he really was my reason for going to that dreadful place every morning initially. Even though he is no longer a reason for me, he still means greatly to me. Pink have said that we can still be friends after this and meet up for yumcha and all but things will never be the same any more. For being able to see him 5 days a week and disturbing him as and when I wish, to an occasional call and sms or yumcha once in a blue moon.

I really DREAD DREAD DREAD!

Put On The Spot

Last Tuesday, Scott decided to pack his stuff and shift to dad's. Seems there was a heated argueent (which is very common). 2 days later, mum smsed me and here's what happened.

Mum: Am I such a bad mother.

Me: What should I answer? This is like an impossible question. After thinking for a bit I answered.
No, you're not a bad mother, just sometimes hard to live with. As for me, I find that we tend to argue over the smallest things when we together for too long, so this distance is a good thing.

Mum: Ok, Understood. Scott moved out, did you know? (DUH!) I feel very distressed. What's he gonna do? How's he going for exams?

Me: Have already thought about these when I saw him on Tuesday and asked too.
Yes, I know. I've already asked. Dad will send him to school and if he has a break in between, he'll just have to stay back.

Mum: Ok.

In a way, I feel sad for my mum cos she's now lonely. None of us are staying with her anymore. But then again, none of us can stand staying with her for too long. I know... ALL mothers are like that, very naggy and stuff. Difference is, my siblings and I have a choice who we wanna live with. I feel sorry for those who have to just live with the situation. But before you start accusing me of being a mean bitch, I have to clarify that living with saperated parents aren't a fun ride either. There are many things we had to go through while they were still together and fighting as well as during the saperation period. Things don't just stop there as problems still arises even up till today. I will not go into that.

All I can say is that there are pros and cons to either situation. Be thankful for what you have. When you think you have the biggest problem in the world, turn around and open your eyes and mind, you will see that your problem is a pea-sized problem compared to many others.