No tears

My 2nd last uncle (mum's side), passed away on the 11th of January 2006 @ 7.15pm. Mum sent me an sms to inform me. Scott got it too and we were both shocked. Even dad was shocked cos he was thinking that uncle was altually looking better and seems to be healing. Well, life knicks you in the ass when you're not looking, I guess.

Just came back from the funeral. It was simple. The body was put in church for 2 nights for wakes and today, it was brought for cremation in Cheras. Mass was at 11am and then jammed all the way to Cheras. What mad eit worse was that some got lost on the way there and we had to wait. After some more prayers, the coffin was lower for burning but the burner was not ready. More waiting for another 20mins. After all's done, headed for lunch and had a really HUGE lunch as many didn't turn up. There were like 6-7 people on a table and the food portion was actually for 10 people.

Anyway, my youngest uncle was telling me that we prolly should prepaid the caretaker as there will be more funerals to come. I have to agree. Not to be mean, but everyone's getting older and more people are getting diesease now a days. Life has to end some day. As funeral expenses would increase in the near future, we might as well pay up now and not worry about when we die.

I didn't even shed a tear today nor the other 2 days. I am close to my uncle and aunties and even the in-laws but as for this particular uncle and his family, I didn't really wanna get to know them too much. They just had such a complicating life and I didn't wanna get involved. Because of this, I didn't feel much of a loss. And thinking on the positive side, he was suffering these years, it is a good thing that he leaves his bodily pain. But I do feel sad for everyone who dies a physical death cos I put myself in the family's shoes. It would be torture. I hope I won't have to go through this pain any time soon.