I Hate Christmas

It's the time of cheer and happines, so why do I not feel so jolly? In true fact, the feeling of christmas has left me the year my parents got seperated.

Now, I feel for christmas is stress. The stress of worrying what to buy for everyone and whether I have the budget for it. The stress of cleaning the house for a party of some sort. The stress of wrapping presents. The stress of wondering of either parent would mind if I spent it with the other...

Christmas is indeed a very sad time of the year for me. A true meaning of christmas is where it should be spent with your family, eating and drinking and opening presents together. Now, the meaning has somewhat changed to spending it with friends, smoking and drinking and doing crazy things. I know I'm being all sentimental here, but it's the truth. I used to look forward to christmas when I was younger. Even getting ready for christmas was so much fun. My whole family would be cleaning the house, putting up christmas decorations and the tree, buying gifts, wrpping them... all these were done 2 weeks before christmas and from that time till christmas, there was always so much joy and happiness.

My friends asked me out for some get-together later. I'm thinking of declining them. I just don't have the mood for partying. Christmas is just so dreadful to me. I think I should stay home and accompany my dad. Already I feel bad for not being with mum. I called her ealier to ask if she was home, for me to drop off the presents, she sounded unhappy, I don't blame her, with all her kids not around her during christmas, even I would be unhappy. But if I were with her, then what about dad? He'll be alone as well. I don't like having to choose and seperate cos it only makes me feel horrible and I know there's no way of changing things. I thought I would have gotten used to this lifestyle by now, but even after about 10 years living like this, I still haven't gotten used to the whole I-feel-bad-for-not-being-with-the-other-parent-during-christmas.

Christmas sucks!

Finally... Interviews!!!

Yesterday and today, I have been getting some calls for interview. I am suppose to go for an interview in Section 19 (Wisma Acedemy) for the position of Marketing Executive for this company call Advantech but seeing as I didn't get a return call on the confirmation of today's interview, I might not go. But then again, I think I might give them a call, just to be sure.

Earlier, I got a call from Waves PR for a position as Writer. Suppose to go for interview on Friday noon. The place is in Phileo 1 and I'm looking forward to that as I really want to be a writer more than anything else.

Day before yesterday, I got a call around 6.30pm to ask me to go for an interview in Sec 17 in this company call HK Comp as an Indoor Business Development Executive. This interview will be on Friday morning. Even though I have a sinking suspicion that it will be mostly telemarketing, I will just go and see what happens.

I'm so overjoyed these 2 days from getting interview calls. Even though I am still not so desperate to quit my current job (as it seems to be quite stable at the moment, minus the money part), I will open myself to oppurtunities. I mean, if other companies can offer me more, why not?

Christmas Time!!!

It's almost Christmas time. This means cheers, parties, pressies, happiness and get-togethers. But for me, this is a time of torture. With all the gift buying and hunting, I rather not celebrate Christmas.

Was in KL the whole of Sunday with Kie. Walked from Sungai Wang, to Low Yat to Times Square and even to Central Market. Kie was complaining and even I was too (considering I don't complain much when it comes to shopping). My legs needed a much deserved rest when I got home.

I think I pretty much covered everyone's pressies, except for dad (don't know what to get him) and my friends (which I plan to buy in Jan - lack of $$$ and party's in Jan anyway). Unfortunately, I have to be the one buying all the pressies and write BOTH my brother's name on it even though the $$$ comes from me. *sigh* The resposibilities of being the eldest!

Spent the whole of Saturday at my cousin's wedding. So glad he finally settled down. Actually, we all predicted he'll be the 1st of the 3 siblings to settle down as GT doesn't seem to wanna have a family and MT is still young (even tho she has a steady already). So, congrats LT and Jo. After the wedding, there was luncheon. All in all, everything took a wraps at 4pm.

Went out for dinner with the rest of the family at The Curve. Elder generation was complaing about female side of the family, saying they are taking all the money from the wedding and blahblahblah... As usual, money's the source of all evil. Got a good sounding from elders to remind us, the younger generation not to be so silly and easily be taken advantage of when it's our turn to get married.

Besides that, The Curve was really pretty with all Christmas decors and Christmas songs playing in the background. Wanted to take piccies with my camera phone but decided was too lazy to. Maybe next time. For more Christmassy piccies, please go to Pinky's blog.

12 December Shopping

Was a bit pissed that even though it was a Selangor public holiday, I still had to go back to office. All because of Stupid Daren's work. He never gives me peace. He's always passing me last minute work and I have to bust my ass for him. I know he's a Director and all but cmon, I'm human too... You can't gimme last minute work and expect it to be done there and then and perfect. Trust me, I ain't the only one complaining about him. He is so well-known for passing his shit around that a lot of people don't like him.

Anyways, MFish decided to let us off at 5.30pm. Which was good as Kev drove and he sent Kie and me to my house. It was raining so I got dad to send me to 1U. was shoping till I dropped and Kie literally dropped. She kept cursing me for getting her to walk so much. I bought close to RM300 that day but I was satisfied. I managed to get a dress for CF's wedding and some accessories to go with it. Unfortunately, I was so hooked on getting my stuffs that I didn't even get any Xmas pressies.


I liked this top so much because it's transparent and can be casually thrown over a tube or spaghetti strap.
Top from WH @ RM 71


Now, this is the dress that I'm gonna wear to CF's wedding. Hopefully CF doesn't sees this blog cos she's supposed to be suprised.
Dress from Blook @ RM 80


Accessories to match my dress. A necklace and a butterfly ring. Now, if only I can find earrings to match too.
Necklace @ RM 35, Ring @ RM 26 from Vault


These were SO cute, I HAD to buy it. I especially liked the lil fwavers on it. Wanted to buy another similar with orange flowers but was thinking about the $$$ part.
Boxer from WH @ RM 26


Matty's birthday is on 27 Dec, had to get him a card cos I can't seem to afford anything else. Would love to get an airplane ticket to Sydney to suprise him but that would be a bomb for me. *sigh*

Xmas card for Matty. Again, would prefer to fly there and present myself as his pressie (hey... no kinky thought, k?) but no $$$
Cards from Memory Lane @ RM 40

Well, that's all for now. Back to work. Will be going to town this Sunday. Cousin's wedding on Saturday. So many things happening this December.