Damn Pissed

3 June 2004 (Thursday) - Damn Pissed

How could they do what they did!!! If you didn't want to come in the 1st place, then don't come. It's not like we put a pistol to your head and ask you to come. Here's the 411.

EJ, Yen, Pink and me went to the mall earlier to get Nie's pressie as well as have a quick dinner before the movie. Halfway through choosing Nie's pressie, CC called and said he'll be joining us for dinner. I felt he was being ridiculous because he had to come all the way JUST to have dinner with us. Anyways, he came with Nie (what a surprise) and we had dinner. Later, he left and we adjourn to the movies. After the movies, we decided to go yumcha and when we were on the way there, CC called to ask where we were and what were our plans. Pink told him we were going yumcha at our usual place and he said he'll meet us there. Right after that, I told Pink that I hope he doesn't bring his good friend, my crush, LW for I really didn't want to see him just yet. Just after I said those words, LW's car appeared in front of us and my whole mood crashed. Well, no matter what, Pink told me to loosen up and have fun. We all sat down and ordered our drinks but CC and LW didn't join us. Instead, they drove off without even saying hi. Pink and me were bitching about it the whole time and I really felt damn pissed for them doing that. If they just wanted to show off their cars or something, PLEASE... Just don't show up. Thing is, I didn't wanna see LW that nite either so why must he turn up and leave just like that?

Questions... Questions... Questions I cannot answer. The only way I can get it is by asking CC or LW myself but I am not gonna do that for I am too pissed at them to even want to talk or see them for some time. Unfortunately, mum was there with us last night so we couldn't stay up too late and bitch about it even more. I got home and send an sms to Pink to bitch to her some more. I told her that the only person who can stand them both is Nie. I think this because she has a thing for LW. Seems she has been going out with them without us knowing and getting closer to CC, even though they actually don't know each other well at all. I admit that I do feel some sort of jealousy but then I have no right to for they have their own lives and their own decisions.

I also quite mad at Nie for doing this behind our backs. If she wants to mend our already bad friendship, she should learn to be more honest with us instead of going out with our friends behind our backs. We actually had to find out from CC and he said that she did ask us to go but we didn't want to but in fact, she didn't mention anything of that sort at all. Goes to show that she already had intentions of going out with them without our knowledge. Honestly, I feel really sad and betrayed and hate inside of me now but I don't think I can tell anyone just yet. Even though I know Pink will sorta understand but yet she'll try to talk me out of feeling hate for she'll say that no matter what, we're all still friends. I know that fact but it's just that there is no way I can curb my feelings. Can you?